So much for that whole "monthly update" thing. I really don't have much to say right now, but I'm BORED because there's nothing to do on weekends during summer classes.

In exactly one week from this moment I will be with the love of my life again.

I like ellipses. Ellipsises. Ellipsi. Whatever. For some reason I always feel a compulsion to add a fourth . to them.

Wow, I REALLY don't have anything to talk about right now. Incase you didn't notice. But it's not like anyone reads this anyway.

Why is there no mood emoticon for impatient? Because that's exactly how I'm feeling right now. Impatient because I want to DO something, and because I'd rather be in class right now, and because I DESPERATELY want it to be next Saturday... or at least Friday so I could be home and hanging out with my friends. Since I cannot find an "impatient" emoticon and don't care to use any synonyms, I think I'm feeling "llama" instead.

I am Lauren. I am 19 years old. I am loved by and in love with many people and things. I am compassionate, emotional, sentimental, and far too quick to overanalyze things. I have a bonsai tree named Vladimir, a bean-bag teddy bear named Disco, and an iPod named Herbert. I sleep in my fiance's pajama pants. I know I'm not going to be a published author. I don't write much anymore, and I blame my ex. I don't know what I'm going to do with my life or where I want to go to do it. I keep a lot of things secret. I love my fiance and friends more than anything in the world and always will. I forgive people I care about easily. I need to write more. I have regrets and I always will. I love myself now more than I ever have in my entire life. I wish I could change the past. I would choose to fly if I could have any superpower. I am slowly learning about life. I am a very different person now than I was one year ago. I think one year is a very long time. I do not know what my political views are.

And right now I am okay with all of that.

Love, peace, and hugs.